- My Uncle Laurence, pictured here with my Grandma following some of his treatment last summer.
A year ago today, we lost my Uncle to a brain tumor following a 7 week battle.
My uncle was entirely selfless, yet extremely humble. If you were down, he would pick you up. If he really cared for you, he would never lose faith in you and the decisions you made. He had so many qualities that a lot of us don't have, regrettably.
I count myself so incredibly lucky that I got to stay with him for a week, just a few days before he was gone. In that time, he became the first person that I told about this here blog, and I sat and told him about everything that I dreamed of. He told me that he had every faith, and told me that I could achieve all the things I wanted if I worked hard enough for them.
He fought his cancer head on, even when we were all told that it was a fight that he wouldn't be able to beat. He learnt to carry on when half of his upper body lay dormant. He taught himself to get up and walk again. He taught himself to eat with only one hand. He taught himself to write again, keeping a little journal full of sentences that improved day by day. He never gave up. He never stopped being a husband, a father, a grandfather, a brother, an uncle, a friend. He didn't let it consume him even when it tried its hardest.
Everyone asks me how I manage to stay positive with my illness. My uncle is the reason. He has given me a whole new outlook on life. A real reason to live.
It takes someone incredibly special to do that for someone.
We all coast through life hung up on silly little things, planning things for 'another time', wasting time on people or situations that upset us. I'm not going to do that anymore. I'm going to do the things that really matter to me, and dedicate love and time to those who I wouldn't be able to get along without. My 'dreams' may seem ridiculously big right now, but if I feel even an ounce of the faith that Uncle Laurence felt, I know I'll be able to achieve them.
I owe my Uncle the world...
And so I will continue to fight my own miniature battles and I'll continue to try and figure out what exactly I want from the world, before grappling it into a firm headlock and never letting it go.